Middle Age
1 When we’ve just taken off, and the distance between us and the earth is still understandable—a few cars down there sliding along a duct of road, all the differentiated roofs slipping back into a flat suburban panel— that is when I most acutely feel the plane could crash. 2 I was suddenly lifting— the surface of my sleep below was falling rapidly away. The expanse between my body and whatever always lies beneath it kept increasing, and I could feel the possibility of plunging through that vastness into nothing. Then I was in the dark of our room with you, love, stirring, and I eased back into the headlong forward hurtling that’s a kind of stillness.